Crazy month or so

Ok, so I know I have been off for a while, but a lot has been going on since my last blog and a lot has changed. So here is the long and short of it all. After our trip to NY, I decided to start getting the girls on a good routine and schedule. So between working on school work(Faith is reading like a champ, adding, subtracting and telling time), cleaning the house and swimming, I have been trying to wrap my head around the move still and some other decisions I have made. Back in June, I signed up to run the Marine Corps Marathon with TAPS in honor of Joel. TAPS is a non-profit orginization for military family's who have lost a loved one. TAPS stands for tragedy assistance programs for survivors. It is a wonderful, wonderful orginization and I can't help but try and promote and raise money for this group. They have done so much for my girls. If you ever want to check out the site and all they do, it is . I am still questioning my thought process when I decided that this is the year to run the MCM. I have not been training, I have never run a marathon, but I am a runner. That is all that I have going for me. So far it is going ok, but a lot of the veteran marathoners I talk to tell me I should wait, that it is too soon without proper training. I know they are right, but I am not going out to finish under a certain time, I am just going out to finish, period. I have always wanted to run a marathon and when Joel got home for Iraq he was going to help me train for one. He would never run a marathon, but he could run for quite some time and help me keep pace. Since we never made it to that point, I decided I want to do this run, train and finish it, for him and for me. I know he will be there with me and I know on those hard, long days he is right next to me, but I still wonder if I am out of my mind. If I should wait till next year to make the run. I feel if I don't do it now, I will never do it. At the same time, I don't want to hurt myself, I don't want to over do it and I don't want to stir up a lot of emotions that I have finally put to rest. I guess I will figure it out. Well, I wanted to write more, but I have to much to do right now. I will try harder to get on sooner and on a more regular basis. Thanks for all of your support everyone!!!! Especially you Glo and MQ, you two are always checking up on me!