The visit

Have you ever done something or gone somewhere and all the sudden, everything just clicks? It all seems to fit and everything seems to be ok? For me, my visit to Arlington last weekend was just that. Something clicked and I realized that it is ok for me to move on, it is ok for me to look forward and see another future and life. Another life, without Joel here in bodily form, but still very much a presence in spirit. As the girls and I were laying roses on Saturday and visiting with other widows, it just clicked, Joel would want me and the girls to be happy, he would want us to have a full and love filled life. He would want me to do what is going to make me and the girls happy. He would not want me staying around the Army post becuase that is what we last had or he surely would not want me moving to DC to be close to his grave. He would hate that, he always hated DC/VA area for living and did not want the girls growing up there. He would however want me to be somewhere that we are happy, somewhere that we can grow and live a full life. I am ready to make a decision now, I am ready to move forward and get going on this life. Joel will forever be a part of our lives and a constant reminder of what we once had, he will still keep us going. He will forever be MY HUSBAND and never forgotten, by me or our girls. I know he would support me in this decision and endeavor. We will get there, and we will suceed.