Friday, November 03, 2006

Saddness

As I sit here waiting for the kindergarten class to come in, I feel such utter sadness. I don't know where it is coming from or why, I just know that it is there. I just know that I can feel it and it hurts. I wish it would ease up, I wish I could make it go away, but today I am having a tough time doing just that. I guess it is a combination of everything going on, but this sadness feels so deep.....I just wish it would go away.

6 comments:

Glo said...

Oh Mary honey,I'm so sorry for you pain. I wish I could more for you than this. I just pray for your healing. I wish I could reach out and give you the hugs you need.A the shoulder to cry on or just be there to talk too. Through this blog I have felt your pain. Your a strong young woman and Joel is proud of that. I know that God is watching over you and the girls.Your in our prayers daily.Remember we love and care about you. Always here for you.
Love and God bless,
Glo

CJ said...

Big, Big, Angel hugs, Mary. I'm so sorry that you hurt so much, that you have all this to deal with. I can only imagine how much it hurts. You are in my thoughts and in my prayers. Jesus hold you and the girls close with arms tight around you. I hope that you also feel the love and caring of your friends here in cyberspace. We're always here.

MQ said...

Another family is praying for you too...

Nicole said...

Just know that there are bunch of us out here who are thinking about your and your family and praying for you day after day.

chrissy said...

Mary

Know that you continue to be in our prayers and that your in our hearts esp in the days to come. I can't imagine how you feel or what your going through but I hope that your family and friends help ease your pain this weekend and in the week ahead. You have been such a strong woman and have endured so much may god be with you in the days to come. Please know your in our prayers. I told you last year about this time I was so proud of you and I am. You have carried on the great name of your husband and let his memory live on you are a wonderful woman who has great girls and I am so proud of you. Joel would be so proud of you for your streghth. My husband always speaks of Joels strength and character and I think yours is just as wonderful... I wish I could ease your pain and bring you sunny days again...please know your in our prayers..

Glo said...

Hi Mary C.
I know today is the day you've been dreading and I'm sory.We had a prayer circle for you and the girls yesterday at church. As I stood in that circle I got to thinking. I've been reading your blog for almost a year and don't believe I remember in that year telling you "Thank You" You gave the ultimate sacrifice for me ,my family and others to live "FREE". Thank You, Thank Faith, Thank Brenna, Thank Joel Parents, Thank Your family. Yes and I even Thank Joel for giving his life so our children and grandchildren have the FREEDOM we've had all these years.He is a Hero. The way you've decribed him in your blog, I think he had to be a handsome, strong young man who always put others before himself. He had a strong love for family. He love you with all his heart.He would have admired your strength over the past year. I feel that he would be telling you today "Mary girl you need to move forward with your life". The Lord has a plan for your future,I don't know what it is.Your love for Joel will always be there , you and the girls will never forget him or what he did for our Country.May Jesus embrace you and the girls today and always. May that embrace give you peace you so deserve.
We all love and care about you so much.You and your family are always in our prayers.
Love and God bless,
Glo