Blahs

So I'm feeling a bit blah'ish(is that a word?)  There are a lot of things on my plate right now and for some reason I don't really feel interested in doing them.  I don't know if it is fear, guilt for still having the opportunity to do things, guilt for being able to do things but knowing it is going to take some of the money Joel left for us or just plain laziness.  I'm confused, I'm hurting, and I feel a lot of weight on my shoulders right now.  I don't like this feeling...I don't like not knowing and I really don't like not feeling in control, which is how I feel right now.