Thursday, August 24, 2006

Therapist

I just got back from seeing my therapist and I am not doing so well still. He told me, "Mary, you need to start excercising again, you need to feel good about yourself". I know he is right, I just can't seem to get motivated to get down there and run again. I know I can do it, that was my motivation and my outlet before. I am getting so frustrated with myself, like I am not doing enough. I know I will get down there and get moving, I just need some motivation I guess. Don't know if the Army 10 miler is going to happen after all.

5 comments:

chrissy said...

Yes it will. Mary do you want me to drive to Columbus and run with you. I remember hearing/reading you say you wanted to this...I know you want this...please don't let it slip by. Do it for yourself and do it for Joel...I know you were stoked about this run please do it for the four of you. Motivation and getting it back I can't tell you how to get it, I have my lazy dazy days too but sometimes we just have to push ourselfs to get up and not let life pass us by there is so much you want to do and will want to do to just lay around everyday and let everything run past you. Joel would not want that. I remember a email he sent me right before my surgery telling me how family was always first and how the missions back home were just as important as the ones in Iraq...just hold the memory of the strongness he felt for you and the girls and let that motivate you to the track or to the store or the beautyshop where ever you may need to go.
sorry to ramble...please take care of yourself...your always in my prayers..

Glo said...

Mary,
This may sound as silly as hell. I had a friend who lost a child and she wanted me to pass this on to you. She thought she wasn't going to make it,for almost a year after her childs death. Didn't have the get up and go to do anything. Her therapist told her to drive out to the country by herself and stand out in the open and just scream, kick,throw.....Say all the things out loud that she was feeling. She said she knows it sounds crazy,but she did it. She came back home feeling like a new women.Not that she'll ever not miss her child or forget. Just now she cope's with it much better. Maybe this is what you need to get your motivtion back. Worry about you. Pray for you often.
Love and Prayers,
Glo

chrissy said...

Glo
That doesn't sound silly at all to me. It actually makes alot of sense...My mom had to go off and throw a fit by herself after my father passed away last year to help her cope...

mary said...

I know that is what I need to do, I did something similar after my brother passed, but not in the country, in my dorm room(haha).
It does not sound silly at all.

Nicole said...

If you've ever seen "Steel Magnolias", I remember a part where Olympia Dukakis's character just blows up after the funeral (I think) and then a few minutes later, she is laughing. Everyone needs a release!