Better day(s)

Well, today was by far a better day. I guess I am doing somewhat better. I did need to start doing something along with the other things my therapist advised and I have started skating with my girls. They skate three times a week and this week I skated twice, about an hour each time. I tell you what, to be out there, skating with them, moving around and just getting them going, it is so invigorating and I know Joel would be proud and happy to see me with the girls. I am doing better, not completely myself and not completely out of the hole, but getting there and I know I just need to fight to get all the way out of it. I want to run the 10 miler this october, if it happenes, awesome, but if it does not, then I am not going to get upset and angry about it. It is not worth the stress, it will come again next year, and maybe then I will be better prepared to handle it. I will try to be ready, but I am not going to push harder than necessary right now. My brain and my body will not take it! My girls deserve a whole mama and I realize that right now, that is more important than anything.